hi its me again. i guess you are tired of me talking bout the same old person but sorry i have to continue:(

at times, you were really sweet and nice to me. so heartwarming. but otherwise, you are being so cold blooded. ignoring me, distancing away from me. i dont know what to feel exactly. somehow i've been trying real hard to keep up with you. its not that i cant keep up but its just that there are so many things that i need to keep up with makes it difficult. i'm totally not in control and i SERIOUSLY hate this feeling a lot. i need to feel that i am in control.

what can i do?? i dont wanna feel the distance from u. i really dont want to. am being really desperate here. but at the rate things are going by now, its like sooner or later we aren't good friends anymore. i sincerely hope that i am not thinking too much now. i've been doing my part by treating u as a good friend. BUT... ... ...

i dont know how to continue any further. i just knew that i am really in great pain and pressure right now.

i need you