to come and think of it, i really dont cherish my parents. i always put friends as my priority which is unhealthy. everything i've done its always for friends. asking myself, what have i done for my parents.. i'm so speechless. i dont give them enough money, i dont accompany them, i dont stay at home often, i dont show my love for them.. all i can say is i really love them. such a loser like me dont deserve great parents like mine. i should just fuck off and die right. i'm gg to accompany them more.. life is short. the next moment they're gone. so cherish your love ones while u can before u regret:)

today = friday = lonely

Li = L = Loser


i'm tired. tired of being someone. i've changed. who saw? i walking towards a forest. getting nearer of being lost in it. never gonna get out. i need to do something, but WHAT?

i'm so gonna go back to my old real self. i cant always pretend that i'm always happy when i'm NOT. i'm not gg to be the one who always smile cos i'm NOT. i'm not gg to be the forgiving one cos i'm NOT. i'm not gg to be the giving one cos i'm NOT. i'm not gg to be the one sharing cos i'm NOT. i'm not gg to be the one who has lots of friends cos i'm NOT, i'm by MYSELF. 1 and ONLY 1.

dont ask me bout this post cos i'm NOT gg to say anything

Oh well since I'm kinda bored at work so I shall blog:)) haha

Not very good for me these few days:( dad drop my iPad and left a scar:(
Had a bad diarrhea and stomachache till I cried! Lol first time
Almost lose my handphone again at shokudo

Today nan didn't come, then hyatt came twice to look for him. Don't know whether if he is checking on him not siol.. Hmm need to watch out alr. Lol gonna have my dinner alone later on:( so sadddddd. Should I eat at Mbs or go home then eat? But I miss the agilo olio with chicken chop alr! Hehe shall see then. If coach is able to acc me then I'll go at cck!

I really really wanna go prawninggggggggggg:( coach acc me go please~

i think i need a confidence booster:(

had fun today gg k with coach coconut friend evan lee and fillet wong:))))))))

made me feel like gg to club and enjoy being high high high and dance!!! weets~ lol dinner at home. today rain whole day la omg. weather damn shiok! i die alr. i still haven revise for my btt!!!!!!!!!! wish me luck everyone!

i think i need a confidence booster:(

had fun today gg k with coach coconut friend evan lee and fillet wong:))))))))

made me feel like gg to club and enjoy being high high high and dance!!! weets~ lol dinner at home. today rain whole day la omg. weather damn shiok! i die alr. i still haven revise for my btt!!!!!!!!!! wish me luck everyone!

yay! i felt so accomplished today:) woke up early! had breakfast at home!!! so nice! thanks mummy! went to bball at ytcc with coach, coconut friend, evan lee and boss!! weets~ aft so long man! then it started to rain=.- went to swim at windermere!!!!! but only me and coach went down! hahahaha! well i very long nv 'swim' alr! tried freestyle. omg so tiring. maybe i still dont know the right way though! ahhaha! and its good for my knee!!! it felt alot better after swimming! WHEE!

went home to change. feel like dressing up cos its a SATURDAY!!! lol. had lunch at yt foodcourt! then played monopoly deal at mac! hahahahaha so fun! its the IN game now! i still haven open my new pack at home:(

met steph at yishun. got the photos and the cake for wei wei and nigel. they booked the whole prawn pond at bishan!!!! ahhahaha! first time i tried prawning and i fell in love with it!!!!!!! oh gosh! its damn addictive I SWEAR! so next time i can go with evan lee! yayyyyyyy. gera u better go prawn with me one day ok! PLEASE~~~~ *teh teh teh teh teh* lol!!!!! had lots of nice bbq prawns after that. thanks to mengs, peiyi, gab and brother for bbq-ing the prawns! nicenice:))))))))) and thanks steph for sending me back! lol!

in conclusion, its good that i am having muscle ache now! lol!

things accomplished:
1. breakfast!!!!!!!!
2. Basketball
3. Swimming
4. dress up:)
5. prawning:)))))))))))))
6. falling in love with prawning! LOL
7. MUSCLE ACHE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

well, been very lazy these 2 weeks. late for work even if i got lots of sleep compared to last time, taking cab to work cos i just wanna sleep more when i got 8 hrs of sleep. guess age is really catching up on me andddddddddddd i think i need to make some improvements in my life. cant go on like this. feel like a useless shit.

anyway i really need to go overseas man!!!!!! argh. been wanting to go maybe batam, bintan, redang or genting to feel relaxedddddd... LOL anybody?!

happy new year everybody:) finally can online and blog! today is definitely not a good day for me. 1st, got drenched in the rain; 2nd, bad mood; 3rd, bad temper; 4th, jue de zi ji shou le wei qu.
well i shall not blog bout that here. okay come to new year resolutions..

1. earn at least 2k a mth
2. go overseas at least 3 or 5 times [taiwan here i come:)]
3. pass my driving
4. save bout >500 a month! [die die must save]
5. bose companion 5 speakers! hehe
6. get into uni if possible
7. know what i want to do
8. spend more time with COACH:))))))))))
9. get my D90