many things happened these few days.. we thought we were happy. we thought things are gg to be back like the past, like how we used to be, like the happiness we see in each other is from the bottom of our hearts. then things changed. good or bad, i dont know. we solved the problem which was being put back long ago, too long that we cant even remember that the problem still exist. the one day after the happy outing, when people decided to face it, and all was gone. yes indeed we solved the problem. but what bout the things that is gg to happen next? have anyone thought bout it? do we still have out basic trust? no,is CAN WE? can we still have what the basic necessity is every relationship and friendship? i dont know bout the rest, but for me i start to doubt myself and others. i started to see the ugly things of everything. for myself, no matter how i hid my feelings, no matter how many walls i built, i never make myself look differently. i am still me, just that u dont know how i felt. i build walls, but i dont wear masks. but in others, i started to see... things that i used to see in them isnt there anymore. is it me or them? the friends i knew, are they still the same? i asked myself. maybe some yes some no. i believe people change, but no matter how big the change is, the origin is still there. that was how i used to think it is. but it proved to be wrong. i saw how ugly people are. maybe i am too, not saying i am perfect. maybe the things i expected from my friends is too high, or maybe things just doesnt turn out the way i expect it to be. i dont wished to continue anymore. nobody understand. basically i am disappointed

in this world, the truth is always ugly. but to me i rather see the ugly truth then being showed to the beautiful lie.

fucking pissed. then disappointed! you guys are my parents i really dont expect this from u all! YES I OWE U MONEY! bcos of fucking rws pay what! hello, dont say until i wont return u money hor! I BUAY GIAN THE MONEY LA SERIOUSLY! I GOT 2 HANDS 2 LEGS TO EARN THEM. u guys jolly well knew that i went out till 4 last night! u guys knew that i have a really BAD TEMPER while i'm sleeping n keep talking to me when i'm trying to have more sleep cos i'm working LATE later! but what i get is not your understanding but keep waking me up talking to me bout MONEY! dont tell me i went out late last night. OI, i know i work late that's why i went out late! i work early go home late u all say me i nth to say i kiam gan, i work late dont tell me i dont have the RIGHTS to go out late hor! i got my own life! knn. u want me everyday stay at home waste my life away ah! nnb! SERIOUSLY WHAT U GUYS ARE SHOWING ME IS THE UGLY TRUTH OF YOURSELF BEING MONEY FACED! who says money cant buy ANYTHING! u guys just dont have the money to buy EVERYTHING! who says money cant buy kinship, my parents prove them wrong cos I CAN FUCKING BUY KINSHIP! who say money cant buy blood, if u got the money u go to any hospital, throw them a few million see whether they get for u or not. docs will even donate blood for u ah!

what i learn today:
another ugly truth of the world - MONEY CAN BUY EVERYTHING INCLUDING KINSHIP