ok its been some time since i last posted anything. times flies. end of month alr! next mth oct le:) cant wait for my 21st man! then i can go into casino:) LOL! hmm i really dont look forward to my birthday at all.. maybe just a simple meal with every clique of my friends. too lazy to plan as usual. but most importantly i just wanna spend it with you:)

alright talking bout bday... just came back from EVAN LEE's birthday surprise at hard rock hotel! hahahaha! looking at her shocked face is damn shiok! am always excited when giving surprise. I JUST LOVE SURPRISES SO MUCH MAN! ok maybe its my scorpio traitsXD thanks to shu ping hou zi and coach for the planning. sorry couldnt help much cos i am busy with my work.. its hard to find understanding friends.. and they are those few that understands:)

anyway i've been gg out lesser for 2 months but i didnt manage to save money at all. u know why? cos i literally died at the website asos.com haissssssss.. been shopping there every month~ since i know that webbie. buying this n that, presents that cost me bombs.. whoooooo. ok i shall start in oct!!!! li jia you! save more money..

kinda disappointed when u cant travel with me.. always have been wishing that someday we could go overseas together. but ya, its just another faraway dream

i dont think i deserve any good. im a bad person. i hurt those who loves me and i push away those who care for me. i am selfish. i always think for myself and not others. people can say that they got to be up for sch early and study for test and yet i still didnt go home. i want people to compromise to me but i never did for them. and so that's why i dont deserve to be one of them. i should go. before i bring them sadness and before its too late to even be normal friends. i shouldn't be so emo. i bring down happy mood. people can spam me nice msg but i can just reply i'm tired i'm lazy blah. all excuses. i hate to be emo.. people always move on with their life, and i am always the one that is not changing. people say: 为什么你没有变我就不可以变 i feel damn sad... very. really.

anyway i hate myself. just let me disappear

ok im so tired.. just a short entry. nth much to blog about also. sibei sian. hais. work tired cos havent been sleeping much cos of insomnia. ayes. gonna slp early today. dont feel like having social nights out. dont know why. i just want to have personal time alone and also personal time with her. ok i admit im selfish. haha anyway i found the word. im obsessed with her