well well, since today is a sunday, i should be on a happier mood=) i'm gg to be able to watch my an yi xuan ltr and last epi of fucked up hai pai tian xin. lol! my an yi xuan is so damn pretty. i should check out the stores soon cos i'm so gonna buy autumn's concerto OST. it's way too nice~ i went stackers training ytd aft 6mth. omg, seriously i think i need to work out on my physical! hais. ytd training wasn't that tough. and today i was having aches all over. i cant even walk properly, dont even say of climbing and gg down the stairs! DAMN!!!!!!!!!! and i guess you wouldn't care anyway! i'm so motivated to train in bball again aft such a long break. may god bless me for the training next wk! cos i think it's gonna to be way damn tougher than ytd's!

i miss my GERALDINE YAP SI MIN damn much. but she's in kinda low mood recently. i sincerely hoped that her problems will be gone so that she will be happy and that i can go meet her((((((: i shall pray for her tonight!

hee i got my lappy back.... the keyboard is nicer to type now cos they changed a new one for me n i can type faster now! LOL!

reading at the older posts... i was just wondering at that point of time what exactly were your feelings towards me. well i guess i wont be able to face the answer even until now though. lol. ok i'm just really WONDERING~~

some people just wont change the way they talk. and for me i just wont change the way i show my displeasure towards some post.

i'm wonder how is my only love doing.. hais hope she is well. i've been busy lately. been a long time since i met her. i miss you......... u know me, zui ying xin ruan k. no matter what happens, i want u to know that i will always be there even i dont have the time to meet u as often as before but just 1 wk more alright! 等我！

there are many types of ppl in this world.↲↲
1. The super sensitive one whom always think bout others first n never him or herself.↲2. Some who just misunderstands the others and nv use brain to think whether is she saying the truth and just using childish ways to treat de other.↲3. Some who always be by your side even the world turn against you.↲4. Some whom you will tell everything to. 5. Some are good listeners n will give you some productive answers.6. Some who will anyhow give you attitude when you do nth at all. 7. Some who will self destruct n in de process hurting others. 8. Some who are just fake. 9. Some who are just insensitive enough. 10. Some who are the happy pills of others. 11. Some who will treat you nice, taking care of you and wont expect anything in return. 12. Some just make use of you, taking advantages. 13. Some that are matured and agrees with what they say. 14. Some are just attention seekers but they meant no harm. 15. Some who just want to be alone when they are emo. ↲ guess who you are and who am i:)

you are like a drug and I am like a drug addict

i miss the days when i always play bball aft sch everyday.
i miss the days when i was tanned and exercise everyday.
i miss playing competitive basketball without feeling tired.
i miss playing basketball without having to wear my knee guard
ever since the day i injured my knee, i couldnt do what i used to do
nobody know the feeling i felt
injuring it countless time.. the every 2nd thoughts that come thru my mind bout doing the movements
the feeling on the court.. the anxiousness.. nobody knows how worried i was. cos everytime i couldnt do well is bcos i was afraid to be on the court. i dont have the self confident i used to have.....
now having to move away from basketball, i'm still afraid. i'm always having a second thoughts on jumping off the higher grounds. ending up, i'll still take the stairs-.-

okay i shan't think bout it anymore.

sometimes it's okay to lose control of your own body, your ownself..

现实已摆在面前, 可是我还是选择了逃避
选择了活在那美丽虚幻的世界里
看见你们对彼此的温柔, 让我间接想起我始终只有我自己
像朋友般待在你身边, 其实是我自己设下的骗局
最终你都不会了解, 因为一切的一切都是我自己造成的
伤害; 思念; 痛苦; 嫉妒; 悲伤; 心酸;
都是我一个人必需去接受的
因为你从以前到现在都不曾属于我

you are so selfish that you took my whole mind away making me unable to concentrate on stuffs i'm doing

cant you just stay out of my life?
sorry, i'm the one that let you in, you are not in the fault.
BUT,
can we dont share the laughter together
can we dont be there for each other
can we dont share the secrets together
can we dont do things together
can we stop showing concerns to each other
cause i hate all the 'togethers' we had
all the wonderful memories we had
cause i way too far out of the picture
its just another 3 persons movie
which reminds me that i'm nothing
but just your friend.
and i just simply hate hearing the word friend

between you and me, who am i is to you? someone who is important or someone you will look for only when you're lonely

is there another person like you in this world? if so, can i meet you? :'(

为什么我爱上的人是你?
为什么你爱上的人是他?

well. cheerp up team np! u guys did great! nobody's at fault. everyone did their best. no more regrets alright! next game must win! jia you.

hope tml will be okay for me! hais. hope everyone unstd that human make mistakes. everyone wish me gd luck.

retard cheer up k! true friends are the ones who accept your everything. jia you even though i know u wont see this. hahahaha

在机场送你离开
终于鼓起勇气对你说我会想你
不善于表达自己的感受
有好多好多的话想对你说
反而那些字仿佛塞在我喉咙
对你的思念与牵挂
不知该如何说起
就把它深深的放在心里
对你的冷漠是对你的疼爱
因为我不知道该如何表达自己
曾经鼓励你, 如今更舍不得你
对你离去的感伤不比任何人少
但愿天上的星星
能永远陪伴与守护着你



空荡的街景
想找个人放感情
作这种决定
是寂寞与我为邻
我们的爱情
像你路过的风景
一直在进行
脚步却从来不会为我而停
给你的爱一直很安静
来交换你偶尔给的关心
明明是三个人的电影
我却始终不能有姓名
你说爱像云
要自在飘浮才美丽
我终于相信
分手的理由有时候很动听
给你的爱一直很安静
我从一开始就下定决心
以为自己要的是曾经
却发现爱一定要有回应
给你的爱一直很安静
除了泪在我的脸上任性
原来缘分是用来说明
你突然不爱我这件事情

as you can see some random people just tagged some shit on my tagboard but i'm too lazy to remove it. and common sense says it all that it's not even candace parker blog but i just love her and it's my personal rights to have those candace parker stuffs in my blog. well i shall just ignore it because it's my BLOG!

today went to watch ivp games at ntu again. lol congrats to np guys for winning ite. it's really a nice game to watch. close fight. seriously making your heart beating heavily all the time in the 3rd n 4th quarter. as for the girls nyp won sim just simply by 1 point. one of the player scored a 3 pointer with less than a min left to let them win by 1. ite and tp match was alright. ite wasnt performing well enough but still they won tp 69-39.

i simply enjoy watching bball matches. remind me of the old days when i'm the one on the court fighting to win. hahaha

congrats to np girls team for winning smu=D

gd luck for the game against rp on monday. even though it's a tough one, but just do your best alright! =)

twister fries is out in mac~ yummy. fancy eating it twice a day. I'M LOVING IT! i'm happy seeing geraldine! she always make me feel happy when i see her which i dont know why. maybe cos she's retarded and sooooo cute being a retarded ass. lol!

am i affected by you or not?

am i somebody or nobody to you

spoiled brat? please fucking give me the definition of being a spoilt brat. don't even think you got the right to call be that cos you don't even know me that WELL to call me one and i'm fucking not a spoiled brat.

definition of spoiled brat: lack of consideration for other people, recurrent temper tantrums, an inability to handle the delay of gratification, demands for having one's own way, obstructiveness, and manipulation.

PLEASE TELL ME TRUTHFULLY IF I AM ONE BECAUSE UNTIL NOW I WILL ONLY ADMIT THAT I AM PAMPERED!

okay i'm starting to find xia yi zhan xing fu a bit draggy cos now vanness is gg to take revenge on my fav pretty ke lian de XUAN XUAN! hahahahahaha. n hai pai is getting fucking exciting!!!!!!!!! cos next epi my cute kawaii chao ke ai n the black aura rainie knows that xue hai is da lang da lang ~~~ hahahahaha cant wait for both episodes though=x

love 安以轩 & 杨丞琳

haha i think i send the wrong msg to the wrong sheryl.. opps. lol

dont know since when things started to change. maybe on tues. maybe i'm just thinking too much..