hello blog!!

i miss you.. i miss how i used to blog every other day. i miss being so active in blogging. but time have been cruel on me.. or maybe i'm just bad at my time management. you know i get lazy and stuffs, and i'm having no life now. nothing interesting for me to blog about anymore. probably i've lost interest in most of the things now. i lack some passion! where to find that energy?? hmm...

many things have changed recently. some for the good, some for the bad. oh well, that's life. right? but now i know that whatever things it may be, health is the most important. so everyone please take care of your own body ok!!

sometimes i feel like i'm living in my own memories, refusing to get out of it. staying at the happy times we had together and refusing to get out and face the cruel reality. i'm avoiding the facts, probably i just wanna let myself be so naive thinking there's still hope between us. few days ago was great. lasted for 3 days before it went back again. i really dont know what are you thinking at times. so confusing. is this the real you or is that the real one or both? how i wish that 3 days could last forever. looking at the places we went, things we do, looking at other people.. it all reminds me of you. its like looking at our shadows in them. how depressing...

alright, i should stop for now before i really get emotional.

has been in and out of my comfort zone recently