i dont think i deserve any good. im a bad person. i hurt those who loves me and i push away those who care for me. i am selfish. i always think for myself and not others. people can say that they got to be up for sch early and study for test and yet i still didnt go home. i want people to compromise to me but i never did for them. and so that's why i dont deserve to be one of them. i should go. before i bring them sadness and before its too late to even be normal friends. i shouldn't be so emo. i bring down happy mood. people can spam me nice msg but i can just reply i'm tired i'm lazy blah. all excuses. i hate to be emo.. people always move on with their life, and i am always the one that is not changing. people say: 为什么你没有变我就不可以变 i feel damn sad... very. really.

anyway i hate myself. just let me disappear