why do i always fail to control my emotions? and who really knows how i felt at that point of time? people always think that i throw tantrum. do they even thought of the reason behind everyone. in all eyes, I'm just a kid who doesn't know how fortunate i am blah blah blah.

everytime i lost control, i made ppl around me angry. after that i think bout it. i will try to cheer them up. cos i feel guilty, i felt that i should do something. but who will appreciate it? yes i am at fault, i should do something.   but has anyone thought of that i can dont do anything at all.

i know friends around me accommodate to me a lot.. but i dont know why i just feel not appreciated. ok maybe i have too high of an expectation, maybe i am just simply greedy. and maybe, i have dont done enough for everybody.

i wish that i am in the movie called Limitless. then i can have the pill. doing everything i want on my own. create miracles. remembering every word people says, everything i was told to do. then all will be perfect. i could even get the girl i always wanted. but nahs... its all fricton. *bomb* back to reality...

people are greedy.. i admit i am. somebody gives and i started wanting more. i know myself i can give back what i had asked for. but not everybody should give what i wanted. things just wont go my way cos i wanted them to be.

i am just not good enough for anybody..