whee. just got home:) went woodlands waterfront:) new place and a nice one to chill at. its like marina barrage in the west! HAHAHA! with nicer atmosphere i suppose. at least to me:)

i want to emphasize thatttttt i only had a meal today:) YAYYYYYY!!!!!!! main point, i resist the temptation to eat the free KFC! LOL cos i know once i start i just cant stop eating a lot more which happens most of the time.

i miss retard. she ask me msg her but she nv reply me:(

anyway i was affected by what someone said. very. i teared but i hide it. it's alright. it's been long since i last emo-ed. sometimes, certain things, certain people, certain environment just cant be compared. i dont know how to continue. not for me to say but for you to think.

it's not that i dont share anything bout myself. not that i dont want anyone to understand me. and sadly to say i really do not have a BFF. it's not about wanting and needing 1 now, nor it's about finding or waiting for 1. i believe this kind of thing is like love. how to phrase it... it just comes by. i believe in this world there will be someone whom will be your bff without u telling her bout yourself. he/she just simply knows and understands you. maybe i'm wrong.. maybe it's just an excuse. but what i know is i dont feel comfortable saying out how i feel and what i think towards certain things. maybe i simply dont express myself well enough. and really it is not that i dont trust you guys for me to open up to u all. i dont know why.. really. its been like this all along. keeping almost everything to myself all these years cos being alone is not i wanted, being lonely is not i wished for...