did i really took the good u guys treat me for granted?

sometimes i ask myself, why can't people be in their own world unless they are mental? isn't it good to live in your own world where everyone and everything existed in how you created them. i can create my own perfect world, with my own perfect people and perfect ideas. then i'll be happy everyday. isn't it great, fabulous, marvelous?

its coming! i felt myself thinking to build walls again. luckily i'm not an architect real life. if not i will be building walls everywhere. i just feel like isolating myself. i miss my old self. i miss the me i am at home. 我想念那孤僻的自己, 真正的自己