A
ppl make mistakes.. i've made 1. but i'm sorry bout it. cos i didnt mean it. sorry i exceeded the limit. but if u think that i really know how hard it was then so be it. but i really didnt know myself. i'm sorry from the bottom of my heart. if you're not accepting it, then i can do nothing but just say sorry cos i cant turn back the time right now. so just dont fool ard with me as u have had said cos u know the price to pay. n i wont fool around anymore cos i wont want to hurt any of u guys.

maybe it's time
to turn back my old self
drawing my own danger circle
cos i realized
not everyone can take it
not everyone is willing to accept it

maybe i will drift to the big ocean from u guys
maybe i will not
cos i cant predict the future
the answer to the problems
is for me to be away
cos by that
i wont be causing hurt to anyone close to me anymore

maybe i shall be like i'm at home
restricting myself to my own room to my own world
not talking to anyone
but myself

the ones i thought would last forever
the ones i prevented to last forever
the ones i tried my best to last forever
the ones i cherished to last forever

lost in the world of my own creating
searching for what's best for everyone
dropping deeper and deeper
meeting obstacles after one another
should i give up on myself
or should i keep on searching myself
is there any kind hearted souls
who are willing to give their hands
in the process of searching selves

i hate myself....

B
if i'm getting this from you.. u're gonna get it back from me. double! cos i'm just returning u what i've taken from u. being scolded for nth. i didnt say anything doesnt mean that u've won and i've lost. i'm just being 随便. but beware there's this time bomb inside me which i do not know well too. like what others say i dont know my limits. but i guess u dont know ur limit to my limits too. you're those type that i've categorized it as: preventing it to last forever. i'm destructive. dont expect anything from me cos i dont expect anything from u either.

mood: emotional
mode: destructive